Posted on 2010.05.24 at 01:03
I am alive....Im sorry Livejournal for being away for so long. I just dont know what to say.....
Posted on 2010.04.08 at 22:34
Current Mood: curious
wow....does anyone post here anymore?....hello?....hellloooo?....ECHO!!
Posted on 2010.02.12 at 01:22
Current Mood: working
Did you know?
For nearly 150 years, the mission of the American Red Cross has centered on helping our communities prevent, prepare for and respond to emergencies? That mission of theirs is now more important than ever. Whether the American Red Cross is responding to a house fire or preparing a child to survive an emergency, their organization is saving lives, comforting those in need and bringing peace of mind to families. Best of all, much of this work is done by people who donate their time and talent to the cause. When you think bout it, a volunteer organization like the America Red Cross is really a treasure to our community. Some of the things that American Red Cross did for our local citizens were providing help to victims of house fires or severe weather aftermaths. They also have jumped to aid in disasters around the world!
Other things that the American Red Cross has provided was today's technology and education to our youth on how to handle emergency situations as well as general health. By providing this education at such young ages better prepares them for years to come on how to stay safe and healthy.
The American Red Cross has spent Money, food clothing, medical supplies and more to so many over all the years that it would be truly amazing to see how many will give back!!
I'm sure by now you all have heard the buzz about the Benefit show being held to raise funds for the American Red Cross...aka "Red Cross Rocks"
The American Red Cross is extremely low on funds and I have come fourth to help raise money for them so that they can continue all the miracles they provide. That is when I came up with the idea of this event.
A lot of planning, negotiations and more are going into this event and we are hoping for a awesome turn out. There's even a possibility of it turning into a 2 day affair! due to the awesome response in bands and people wanting to get involved.
Do YOU want to get involved? Well...read on to find out how!!
We are in need of supporters, sponsors, donations and more!
Would you like to donate towards "Red Cross Rocks"? Simply click the donations button below and send in a donation. All donations will go towards funding "Red Cross Rocks" and any leftover will go straight to The American Red Cross.
We will be holding several raffles throughout the event. American Red Cross is donating some awesome items to be won in the raffles. We also need more prize items for some of the raffles. So if you have something for that..your more than welcome to donate to that as well.
For more information
you can contact me here or on
You can also contact American Red Cross at 918-343-1803
or visit www.oklahomaredcross.org
Posted on 2009.07.09 at 03:47
Current Mood: confused
As I had mentioned in my last blog...er should I say novel..lol. I had a Doctors apt. July 7th to talk over the results of the last test she had done right before I had left for Dallas. I also, as promised to her brought her an autographed picture of one of my promo sideshow pictures that I had autographed with my silver marker. She loved it. The test she had done was a test of a series of 3 that she had done to confirm a final yes or no on my thryoid. It actually came back normal! wow....Relieved that I don't have a bad thryoid..but kinda bummed as well because it means that Im gonna deal with all this medical stuff longer. After so many years of it all..Im kind of sick of it. So many symptoms but so far all the symptoms are results of other symptoms and yet still no cause found. Ugh! The mystery ailment I tell ya! So far, all the doctors, specialists are convinced there IS indeed something wrong...just that I had gone so long without proper treatment let alone proper diagnostics that it has created other problems.
Anyways, as mentioned...I said that I was going to speak with my Doctor about the episode that I had after the show in Dallas. After she looked at the test results of the cardiologist she became rather concerned and then started asking me a series of questions. Like..
Does lights and your environment start looking brighter or warped before your episodes? Yes
How many minor episodes have you had this month? a total? prolly around 8 or so
How many major episdoes this month? 2 or 3
Does anything smell stronger or what not? no
Does your hearing hear things louder or warped? sometimes
Have you had ANY head injuries in your past..any even childhood? Yes...2
Can you supply details from your family who has witnessed these? Yes
Talk to your family about whether there has been any episodes over the years that they are aware of? Ok
Then I finally ask her what were all these questions about. She then proceeded to tell me some news that I found as a rather shock.
She thinks that I have been having siezures (not the convulsing or jerking kind)...and thinks that I may have had them for several years and that they were all improperly diagnosed and treated. Wow....
Now, I have NO idea what to think. I have been talking to my Mom bout the head injuries...the first one was at 3 1/2 years old. I had found out bout that one (as i have no memory of it) a couple of times over the years...but never learned the full details of it. My Mother never wanted to talk about it as its not a happy memory and consisted of her having to escape a very mean person for us kids and herself safety. The other injury I actually remember...I was in 5th grade...during the patriotic concert. we were dressed up as lil miniture george washingtons and I got overheated and passed out and fell off the bleachers about 3 or 4 levels up and hit the stage head first.
I have been feeling rather overwhelmed by it all...and now worry about it and my ability to go on living a normal life. Alot of things have risen for me...things like the Sideshow and its sudden popularity and our first tour coming up. My productions company and my lil girl and my attempt of continuing my role as a "Super Mom" So much that I want to do..and finally getting the chance..but hurdling over obsticles. So many obsticles.
How does one do this? Can this "super mom" continue all her dreams, goals and wishes while giving her child a life she deserves while physically and maybe even mentally sick?
I think that learning and remembering some of the long ago traumas are affecting me. I don't know what to think...or what I should do...
Posted on 2009.01.21 at 22:18
Current Location: home
Current Mood: loopy
Current Music: Popeye theme song
Greetings the world of LJ!! It has been a while since I've updated, due to the fact that I still do not have internet quite yet. So I am currently living the world of lj vicariously through my sister. (She's checking and typing this post for me, among other sites I frequent)
Anyway, now for the update...
You may or may not have heard but I did get into my new apartment. Been working on it quite solidly and it's coming together nicely. Rainn and I really have enjoyed living here so far. We're gonna enjoy it even more when we get internet and tv back. :) It's in a great location and I have great neighbors. It's really nice for low income housing.
Still looking for a job but in the meantime I'm working hard getting Darkkitty Productions back up and kicking. First I have to catch up with myself financially though. I recently had a very touching experience and attended a special benefits show that some close friends and bands I had previously worked with through DKP had put together for me. It was a complete and total surprise when it was presented to me and the show turned out very well. They raised $374 and I got to keep it all to help me with my current financial situation. Thanks to such wonderful people I think I'll be able to catch up with myself really soon. The entire night was full of love and support as everybody greeted me with such open arms and sweet smiles. I am grateful to have such great friends. I'm slowly working my way back to the top, 2009 so far has been way nicer to me than 2008 and 2007 combined. So far the only downfall was having to have teeth pulled but I'm doped up and feeling fine right now, so that's good.
My recovery from the Jamon ordeal has not been an easy one but I am picking myself back up and have even started dating again. So far I've been graced with two great guys, one closer to me than the other however it's all casual because I am still not ready for a serious relationship. But it sure does feel nice to get a lil attention every once in a while. :) I am still mostly focusing on myself and I'm feeling better everyday.
I'm definitely looking forward to tax returns so that I can get a new car and a good boost financially. After that I should be fine and dandy. Hope this post finds everyone else doing well. Hope everyone's having a good year so far.
Posted on 2008.02.21 at 14:46
Posted on 2006.11.18 at 16:58
Current Mood: annoyed
Ok...in my last post I mentioned how Jim claimed he was letting me go....I take it back...hes not letting me go...still getting msges from him begging for a second chance. Im not giving him one....why wont he leave me alone!
k done bitching.
Posted on 2006.11.15 at 05:43
Current Mood: Undecided
Ok..I need to redo my hair badly...I let it grow out way to much...I cant decide though...Should I redo my streak the bright red I had before? or should I say with the darker red? What do you all think?
gimmie feedback friends. :)
Posted on 2006.11.15 at 05:33
Current Mood: bored
Kitty Says Hi!
Posted on 2006.11.11 at 16:55
Current Mood: thankful
Oh! and thank all to who has sent msges, spoke to me and what not wishing me a Happy birthday...Love you guys...really I do!